face spam.

sleepy.

Not being productive today.

i need something a little more raw.

this is my hidradenitis suppurativa. i’ve had it since i was around 11.

it is a skin disease that effects the sweat glands in the armpits, breasts, groin, and inner thighs. 

i’ve been on antibiotics numerous times, taken corticosteroids, tried hot compresses, etc. none of which really do the trick.

and it always gets worse in the summer time.

it seems to have exhausted itself in my armpits (finally). it would make wearing a bra extremely painful and sometimes leave open sores that would bleed onto my shirts.

i also have it on my inner thighs which makes shaving nearly impossible past a certain point. it hurts to wear pants or shorts at times. it especially makes wearing a bathing suit uncomfortable.

within the last few years, it has spread to my breasts, leaving scars and darker skin. wearing a bra hurts a lot.

i am covered in scars.

and it has made loving myself that much harder.

but this summer, i will say fuck the scars and i will proudly wear my bathing suit and not give a shit about what anyone thinks.

reblogs are welcome and encouraged. spread awareness.

Stuck at school. With nothing to do.

fam time outside

twice my life stood in some sunshine.

At the renaissance fair.

Orange lips and big eyelashes.

eating pizza in my pjs and taking stupid pictures of myself.

sounds about right.

can’t sleep.

i wish there was a way to connect my instagram to both tumblrs.

here’s my face.

sup.